I’m not sure I want to be a “duck”

Ya know what? 

These past few days have been heartbreaking and painful to witness.  Nothing I could write here could come close to describing the pain I’ve seen some go through and it’s a terrible thing to watch. 

I think what a lot of people have forgotten in this fight, is WHY and HOW  **WE** got here.  Everyone involved in this crusade has a reason for being here.  A reason for putting effort into this cause.  And one doesn’t outweigh any other.   Let me repeat that: ONE DOES NOT OUTWEIGH ANY OTHER!  It’s sad to watch along as people dig at each other and poke at each others feelings and mental stability.   It’s sad to realize that some are held to a higher standard then others.  Especially when they have NO RIGHT to poke at anyone.  People make mistakes, they fall down, they stumble, but, that certainly doesn’t equate to mental instability.  It also doesn’t mean they should be trampled on, for their mistakes. 

What cracks me up, though, is that it only takes one or two posts by an “untouchable” (and I don’t mean that in an ugly way) to make everything alright.  WTF???  I really thought, coming into this fight, that I was surrounded by people who had “class” – “conviction” – “morels” and “standards” – my picture was inaccurate.   Blurry at best!  I can see clearly now that things are not as they seem.  I think, what started out as a crusade against Heidi Diaz has turned into a debacle before my very eyes.   To think that I’ve always maintained that there was no “mob mentality” ???   It breaks my heart to come to this realization.   Nothing is as it seems!  I have been naive in thinking that above ALL else, we were ALL on the same team and had the same goal in mind.  You can’t imagine how painful it is for me to come to that realization.

Ducky, if that really was you, I have to say, I’m disappointed.  That’s really the only word I can find to described my feelings right now.  I had held you in such high regard and at such a high standard.   And that’s even without ever knowing you.  All I ever knew was that you were “the one” – the one that everyone looked up to and admired.  To know that that statue has come crumbling down (at-least in my mind) has taken ALL the wind from my sail.   

I’ve made a few friends along this journey.  And for that, I am truly grateful.  I have learned more than enough, about consumer fraud and it’s effects on the human psyche.  I’ve learned “code” and lingo that I never would have learned had I not entered this fight.  I am a blogger – and that had never entered my mind before.  I’ve found out things about people that I never knew I could find on the Internet.  I’ve learned that VLCD are dangerous and that overweight people can and do have anorexic symptoms and behaviors.  I’ve learned what a healthy diet really is and how grateful I am for not having followed the Kimkins diet when I signed up in September 2006.   I’ve learned that you will not change every-ones mind, no matter how hard you try.  And that there will always be someone out there, willing – ready and able to scam you if you let them. 

As you can see, I take with me, a lot of new knowledge from this whole fiasco.  Knowledge is good.  The more you know – the more you grow – and I’ve grown A LOT! 

Thank you to those that have extended a hand to me and have shown me friendship.  It means the world to me!!!  I know I didn’t publicly get involved in this cause until much later than most – but I have been working hard to help.  I have a great amount of respect for most of the folks who  fight this fight and I walk away with that in my heart.  You guys are amazing and I know that because of your efforts, Heidi will be brought to justice for her crimes. 

If I should stumble upon any Heidi information, I’ll be sure to pass it along.  But, for now, I need a break.  I am confused and saddened by what I have witnessed these past few days and it doesn’t work well with staying focused and on task. 

God Bless,

MJR

p.s.    Mimi,  I just wanted you to know that I’m sorry you have had to put up with such hateful and ugly comments written by people from your past.  I wish you happiness, contentment and the knowledge that you are loved!!  It’s evident that you have many folks in your corner and I am truly happy for that.  I need a break right now – because I’ve gotten to the point that I’m angry every time I read comments from a select few and it drives me insane to watch along as they fill the minds of those that only want to understand, with such bull shit.  You are a hero, in my book.  You’ve stood up and taken the hits like nobody’s business and it does my heart good to see that.  But, it can’t be easy – and that’s why I’m so sad.  You are a pillar of strength and I am proud to call you my friend.   Hold your head high!  You’ve conquered demons that most would run away from.  I’m proud of you.